Hope for Healing from Dissociative Identity Disorder
Posted On August 15, 2021
It is easy to feel despair when healing from dissociative identity disorder (DID) as it comes with seemingly unending struggles with strong emotion and loneliness.
Some days struggling with the symptoms of dissociative identity disorder seems never-ending. We are faced with flashbacks, body memories, and even fugue where we wake up in strange places.
This article will not be very long, but it will focus on the downfalls of having DID and, instead, concentrate on hope for healing from the disorder.
Healing Can Have Many Meanings
When speaking about healing from DID, there are many interpretations.
Some say that integration (the big I word) is necessary for healing to occur. Others say being co-conscious with alters is enough.
Still, a group proclaims that they embrace their multiplicity and that acceptance is what they call healing.
For myself, healing has meant working through the trauma memories until I am at peace with who I am and where I have been. It also has meant becoming the mother of my system and the leader who has the last word.
As the leader, as the mother, I have been able to give rest to the alters who once made my life chaotic.
Healing, in my mind, ultimately means finding a place where you are at peace with who you are and where you are going.
The Hard Work of Healing
People who live with the diagnosis of dissociative identity disorder don’t find peace by osmosis. No, healing takes time and hard work. What I mean by hard work is that you cannot go around, over, or under what happened to you, and there is no magic cure.
No matter how you describe it, healing involves psychotherapy of some sort and sometimes other therapies, such as art or drama therapy. You cannot expect to be well after only a few sessions with your therapist. DID can take from a few years to decades to overcome. The thing is not to be afraid of the healing challenges as the struggle is not impossible to win over. In fact, no one is better capable of overcoming the effects of the healing process than those who have experienced and lived to talk about extreme childhood abuse.
The long hours in your therapist’s office and the kiloliters of tears you shed are not in vain.
Being with your therapist to work on healing allows you to break the silence surrounding what happened to you. Secrecy has held you captive too long. It has become time to talk.
The gallons and gallons of tears shed in the healing process wash away the loneliness.
Can Healing Occur?
I am living proof that healing can and will occur if you stick to your guns and don’t give up. I know first-hand how hard it is to overcome the issues surrounding severe and repetitive child abuse.
I have worked on these issues for over thirty years because my mind was splintered into over one hundred pieces. I tried to give up, but I was too stubborn, mainly because my therapist had asked me, “Do you want to let the bastards win?”
Her words sparked a fire beneath my butt that kept me moving forward.
I wish to ask you the same question, do you want to heal or allow the bastards to win?
Healing can and does happen.
There is Hope
It may seem like there is no end to the battle to defeat your abusers and heal. However, there is an end to it. The proverbial light at the end of the tunnel is there only you may not be able to see it yet because the old fear and damage blind you.
It is like we have been in a self-imposed prison in the dark of our minds. We have hidden away so well from our emotions and what happened to us that we cannot find our way out on our own. The darkness in your prison is seemingly impenetrable, and we are haunted by ghosts of the past that are just out of our sight.
Getting into therapy offers a door out of prison, but we must be willing to embrace it and turn the knob. If we do not, we will be resigned to misery forever; if we do, we will eventually find the freedom we deserve and crave.
There is hope. You can take that to the bank.
Ending Our Time Together
Healing isn’t something that just happens; it is a war that we can win if we do not give up. The enemy is our past and the people who hared us, not ourselves. We were innocent victims who deserved much more support and love than we received. We did not deserve to be traumatized and abused. Period.
Healing takes time and effort, but it is all worth it.
I wouldn’t trade the life I have now for anything. Don’t get me wrong; I still have residual problems such as being terrified of having a relationship. However, I live in more peace now than I ever have experienced.
You too will heal; that’s a promise. Just don’t surrender the fight and keep fighting on because the clouds will part, and the sunshine of peace will shine down upon your soul.
“Don’t lose hope. When the sun goes down, the stars shine.” ~ Unknown Author
“One of the most courageous decisions you will ever make is to finally let go of what is hurting your heart and soul.” ~ Brigitte Nicole